Depression due to chronic illness

I have been suffering from chronic pain in my left body since 2 years and my doctors have failed to diagnose the cause of this pain. I experience constant pain in my left legs and left hands, occasional numbness and continuous stiffness in the left body muscles. I have lost concentration in other activities of my life and I am also experiencing short-term memory loss. All the time I constantly think about this pain and it aggravates when I am tensed. My doctors have taken MRI scan of my brain and neck region but could not find any discrepancies so they think it is a mental problem and not a physical problem. I tried to fight this problem by ignoring the pain and getting used to it, but now I am loosing hope and started experiencing episodes of excessive anxiety which elevates my heart beats and makes my head heavy. Also, I am experiencing weakness in the entire body muscles recently and it does not go away with exercise and better diet. My sleep is also disturbed and many a times fill like ending it all by suicide. Please help me with this problem.

I do not have any other problems like unemployment, family dispute, addiction and other physical chronic disease.


Thanks for sharing. Do you believe in miracles? I have seen them myself (and in my own healing). I was told of this story recently and may it bring hope to you...

Acts 3:

"One day at three o'clock in the afternoon, Peter and John were on their way into the Temple for prayer meeting. At the same time there was a man crippled from birth being carried up. Every day he was set down at the Temple gate, the one named Beautiful, to beg from those going into the Temple. When he saw Peter and John about to enter the Temple, he asked for a handout. Peter, with John at his side, looked him straight in the eye and said, "Look here." He looked up, expecting to get something from them.

Peter said, "I don't have a nickel to my name, but what I do have, I give you: In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, walk!" He grabbed him by the right hand and pulled him up. In an instant his feet and ankles became firm. He jumped to his feet and walked.

The man went into the Temple with them, walking back and forth, dancing and praising God. Everybody there saw him walking around and praising God. They recognized him as the one who sat begging at the Temple's Gate Beautiful and rubbed their eyes, astonished, scarcely believing what they were seeing.

The man threw his arms around Peter and John, ecstatic. All the people ran up to where they were at Solomon's Porch to see it for themselves."

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There is hope! You are worth it!

Grace and peace to you,

Merri Ellen

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