Hey there. When I read your words I saw myself. I resent my husband for many things. I have blamed him for many years. Now, I have reached out and I have come to the realization that what he does, I cannot let myself get so entwined in it. I need to think for myself, I need to live for myself and for the sake of my children. If he wants to badmouth me and be not supportive, that's his choice not mine. We need to take control of our lives and quit feeling sorry for ourselves. I suffer from social anxiety and mild depression. I need to choose to live for my children, not for my husband. God also plays a huge role in my life, without him I wouldn't be where I am. Joyce Meyer is good to watch to! Keep your head up! Our children need us to be strong moms!