My great life...

by Ashley

I have a great life that I am thankful for. A loving husband, and wonderful son, even 2 dogs that love me dearly. My depression has been around for about 12 years now. It is like that annoying uncomfortable sweater that itches but you never throw away. I have learned to manage my depression by not doing the things that get me down. I don't have alot of friends, I don't try new things, I don't even think about past events that might trigger my depression. I have found that drinking alcohol makes it 10 times worst, although I enjoy drinking. However every single time I drink, I literally hate myself the next day. I am not suicidal, I think I realize I have too much to live for, however sometimes I wish I weren't "here". Like not dead, but just could remove myself from "here" and not deal with depression anymore. I have always been embarrassed to call and talk to someone, like a doctor. But I want so much to be a better wife, and a better mommy.


Hi Ashley, thanks for sharing. When life is good and we are depressed, there are usually environmental things causing this such as allergies to food or hypoglycemia or simply a lack of certain amino acids. Not always, but this could very well be. I invite you to go through my e-course or e-handbook to see if this is a possibility. Take the research to your doctor and have her walk you through it. Let's start there.

There is hope Ashley! You are worth it! Let's find the wife and mommy you want to be and let her thrive!

Merri Ellen

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Jan 17, 2013
kind of know how you feel
by: Chris

I feel a lot like Ashley. I have a great life that I am thankful for. A loving wife, two wonderful sons, and three dogs. I don’t know how long my depression has been around. Must be a long time though. I did not admit it until recently. I guess I kind of knew I was depressed but never wanted to admit it. I don’t have a lot of friends either, but I have three really good ones. People at work seem to like me. Unlike Ashley, I try new things. I have fun for a brief moment, but then, I kind of wish I would have just stayed home alone. Why do I feel like this??? Like Ashley, I try not to think about past events that trigger my depression. For me alcohol is a double edged sward. For a while it makes everything better, but then, a thought that triggers my issues sends me to a horrible place. I jump to conclusions and often mess up a good thing. I don’t want to die either. But if I could remove myself and not deal with this depression, I would. I really want to get out of this, but it seems the more I try the more I mess everything up. Is it all my fault??? I only started looking into this a short time ago, but maybe my feelings are real, I just have not been equipped to deal with them. I really hope I learn something here because I am not calling the doctor either. I want to be a better husband and father too!!! Thank you Ashley! I would have never written this if you haven’t shared.

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