My great life...

by Ashley

I have a great life that I am thankful for. A loving husband, and wonderful son, even 2 dogs that love me dearly. My depression has been around for about 12 years now. It is like that annoying uncomfortable sweater that itches but you never throw away. I have learned to manage my depression by not doing the things that get me down. I don't have alot of friends, I don't try new things, I don't even think about past events that might trigger my depression. I have found that drinking alcohol makes it 10 times worst, although I enjoy drinking. However every single time I drink, I literally hate myself the next day. I am not suicidal, I think I realize I have too much to live for, however sometimes I wish I weren't "here". Like not dead, but just could remove myself from "here" and not deal with depression anymore. I have always been embarrassed to call and talk to someone, like a doctor. But I want so much to be a better wife, and a better mommy.

ANSWER:

Hi Ashley, thanks for sharing. When life is good and we are depressed, there are usually environmental things causing this such as allergies to food or hypoglycemia or simply a lack of certain amino acids. Not always, but this could very well be. I invite you to go through my e-course or e-handbook to see if this is a possibility. Take the research to your doctor and have her walk you through it. Let's start there.

There is hope Ashley! You are worth it! Let's find the wife and mommy you want to be and let her thrive!

Merri Ellen