I too hate winter well let me start that again I like winter for three months but where I live we have winter for six. I have seasonal affective disorder and social anxiety. ( I also just had job burnout from a stressful job) I only work part time from home. I have a boy and a girl.
The sun is beginning to come out more and I can feel myself coming back to myself. (If that makes sense) I too do not feel as happy as I think I should be feeling all the time. It's as though some days are good and some are not so good. When I feel myself having a good day I use it all up. Meaning I run errands, go visit (only if I am really feeling good) I rarely visit anyone - I don't want to. On the not so good days, yes I stay home - I don't want anyone to see me sad looking like there is no hope left in me.
I have just begun my walk with God and the bible says when we are going through tough times it is because God is trying to teach us something, and I wonder well what are you teaching me God? I am finding it hard to really truly believe God exists because I wonder why I can't be like everyone else - they do not have depression do they? And if they do, why can't I cope with life the way they do?
