rachel, the feelings in your post could have been written by me and I am a 46 year old male! it's not about the specific details, it's about the feeling of self-hatred and loathing that are produced by depression. it is an illness and it is very very real. as an illness, it needs to be treated by doctors and a team of professionals that you can trust. step 1 - get to a doctor that can prescribe and monitor medication. step 2 - find a counselor that can provide some talk therapy. step 3 - write down everything you feel in a journal a couple times a day. step 4 - meditate and find the force that is larger than yourself. step 5 - release your guilt. step 6 - just be and give yourself a break.
I am almost 7 years from a failed suicide attempt and life is amazing, beautiful, peaceful, loving - all things that I could never have imagined. tweet me @peaceintruth. i hope you find peace
Nov 11, 2011 Rating
Not Who but What by: Anonymous
Hello "What I am",
It is clear you are suffering a major depressive episode and you need to get immediate help. It is a dangerous, life-threatening condition and needs medical attention. Please make an appointment with a psychiatrist tomorrow and follow through with the medication he/she gives you, as well as your appointments with a certified psychotherapist at least once a week. You CAN feel better, it just takes some time and commitment. Guilt is a useless emotion that keeps us paralysed in the past, unable to move forward. The burdens you are carrying are weighing you down. Help yourself be free of them, by understanding where they come from and how to manage them. Please get help immediately, as every day that passes just feeds the disease, making you feel more hopeless. Good luck, I know you can get better, you know how I know? Cause I DID! :) Keep the faith!
