I go through it a lot despite medications. There's a feeling of numbness, just going through the motions where life is grey, purgatory. Hope helps. Hope that there's more to life than life. Hope that God and the Lord cares about u. Get friends who knows about your condition and with whom u can talk. Psyciatrists are a good help as well. Keep a written journal and compare the days.
Good Luck,
Remember, life is short and so is joy and suffering. Pain dosn'et last
