Pain Tickles Me

by KC
(Langley, BC)

I have not been diagnosed with depression, but I know I have it, and it hurts. I have been clawing up my arms so hard that they bleed and have almost broke up with my boyfriend because I wanted him to get someone better. I am not worth his time. I hurt everyone around me and do not care about myself. I hate eating anything healthy and i hate people in general, everyone thinks I'm strange and dumb and scary. I also pull out my own eyelashes, eyebrows, leg hair, armpit hair, pubic hair, etc. as a show of my own self-hatred. I enjoy pushing everyone away so I could die and no one would care. My mom has basically abandoned me and my younger siblings, leaving me and my dad to watch them. However, since my dad wasn't very helpful with watching us, so that left me watching my 3 younger siblings. All are autistic and I was 11. Thank you for listening to my story.
-Katy, age 16