suffering with depression - yet much joy

by Victoria
(San Francisco, CA)

It is very difficult to live feeling depressed almost every day. I started feeling depressed when I was 22 years old, I am now 63 years old. I have battle with this illness for so long; I started taking antidepressants when I was 47 years old; as soon I started menopause the depression got worse - I could not sleep; I was not hungry, I was full of anxiety. But also, let me tell you that when I felt well, and even now when I feel well I love my life, I have learned to appreciate even the smallest things that make me happy; I love nature with all my heart, I have a very beautiful rose garden that is my pride and joy; I have great friends; I have visited beautiful countries; I have learned other languages (my native tongue is Spanish) I take good care of myself; do yoga; eat well; see my friends; go to bed early, but still I feel very depressed because the medication is not helping anymore (I take Cymbalta) but I never give up I learned since I was very young to say to myself "I always bounce back" Thank you for reading my story. My heart and my prayers go to those souls that have this terrible illness.

ANSWER:

Thank you for sharing Victoria! I'm so grateful that despite the depression, you have found much joy at times as you shared. Those were wonderful things!! Enjoy my research and I hope and pray that something will be made known for why you are suffering!!

There is hope! You are worth it!

Merri Ellen