Wow!!! I too have a great home although the location is NOT my favorite (I live beside my parents, not my choice)I have an okay husband (not 100% supportive) and two beautiful/ healthy children. I too feel unhappy, unfulfilled,can't seem to find joy, I too am in the pit.
What does work on my "good days" is the bible, listening to Joyce Meyer, working out, drinking water, getting outdoors, tending to my garden, talking with friends, doing at least two things per week with friends. Getting out of town for a different outlook, shopping for clothes.
I have social anxiety, it's a challenge for me to go grocery store, it seems I bump into everyone I don't want to see there. I am not employed but trying to get back into the work force part time. I sometimes think the way my husband treats me (nothing I do is ever good enough for him) is causing my anxiety. Not that I am blaming him but the way people treat you has an impact on how you feel about yourself, in my opinion. Where I am at now is I am thinking of leaving him, the hardest part is my children they are going to have a tough time with this and I am afraid it will scar them and wreck them. But I think if they do not have to hear mom and dad argue everyday that will be one less stress in their young lives. Then another thing that keeps me staying with my husband is the bible. God hates divorce, so I wonder if I leave will it be very hard to make it on my own as a single parent? I don't know if I can do it? My husband is depleting my self-esteem.
May 05, 2009 Rating
Good insights by: Cindy
HI Suzanne,
Congratulations for figuring out what makes you feel even a little bit better. I agree that getting things accomplished and fixing myself up really help. I've devised a little daily checklist for myself to remind myself to do those little things that will eventually add up to regaining my joy. On my list are things such as drinking 8 glasses of water, taking my vitamins and supplements, getting exercise, meditating, reaching out to friends, taking a walk after lunch, getting 8 hours of sleep, and practicing mindfulness. (So often I get up in my head and start worrying about things and lose any pleasure I could be having in the moment.)
I celebrate my pleasurable moments no matter how short-lived they are. I know that one of these days I will experience the joy of life again and so will you!!
