i feel like i'm lost in a world of my own. life happening all around me and my body moves to the motions yet i feel so empty. i feel as if someone has scraped all the life from within me and won't put it back. don't sleep real good or sleep too much, can't concentrate at work, feel completely alone, yet i wanna be alone but don't wanna feel lonely. don't feel like i can talk to anyone because even if i tried the pain that i feel is so deep that no one would ever understand (been there done that). feel guilty for feeling the way i do and ashamed of the way i feel because i don't have a reason to feel this way. feel like it's all my fault...i just know there's a glitch somewhere within me. wish that i could run away from everyone and everything and get mad because i can't. know my only final escape is death and due to my religious beliefs feel that if i killed myself that i would go to hell and that would be the only thing worse than this, so i feel completely trapped in a never ending world of pain. it does get better at times but always comes back. been on medicine...just covers the problem doesn't cure it...my only hope is an Almighty God.
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Thanks for sharing. I want to encourage you that there is hope! I myself suffered from depression and was on the verge of suicide but now enjoy a very full life helping others come out of depression.
There are many reasons for your struggle with depression and I'd like to follow up to see if you have met with your doctor and with a counselor at this time. If not, I encourage you to do so.
"Worry weighs a person down; an encouraging word cheers a person up." - Prov 12:25
"A glad heart makes a happy face; a broken heart crushes the spirit." - Prov 15:13
"A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a broken spirit saps a person's strength" - Prov 17:22
I encourage you also to plug into your local Bible-teaching church if you haven’t yet. Dig deeper into God’s Word with a strong community to support you during this time. God loves you and wants to show you his hope.
Carefully go through my e-course that outlines some research that I discovered which helped me defeat depression years ago. It is info I discovered after reading medical journals for myself. I took it to my doctor and he helped me apply it.
Here are some verses from God’s Word to encourage you…
Deuteronomy 4:30-31
Hebrews 13:5,6
Matthew 6:31-34
John 10:10
Jeremiah 29:11
1 Peter 5:7
You can look them up here.
There is hope! Go now and enjoy the research and may it bring you hope!
-Merri Ellen