fighting

I have been suffering from depression for 15 years,ever since my last year at school.Ive tried every anti depressant under the sun,and still no cure.Every day is a struggle to get out of bed.Its an absolute miracle im still alive,even trying to get through work every day ,when i cant hold concentration any longer than2 seconds.Ive no sex drive,no hormones,cant get turned on,if i had this much id feel like a man,.Why is life so cruel,.mick