Tried killing myself last summer, it got so bad that I actually did my hardest to hurt myself and kill myself also. I made a video about how my high school classmates bullied me and I couldn't deal with it anymore. I told them goodbye and they were *&%$@. The next day, the cops came they took me to the hospital...and everything went down hill from there.
ANSWER: Thanks for sharing. The journey goes uphill because you did not end up killing yourself. There is hope. You are worth it. Receive the help you need through counselors. Get to the bottom of why you think so poorly of yourself. Your perception of yourself is what has to go. Not you. Your classmates' perception is not reality. Rise above - one step at a time. Don't give up young friend. Don't succumb to the lies all around. The truth brings freedom. Keep pushing and help yourself to the research and online counselors. It's all here for you!
Merri Ellen :)