All the girls are brighter than me
1. Three people I've met, actually chatted by smartphone & internet, are 3 single girls, my friends. They are joyful, energetic. They gave good advice. I don't understand why they can still be with me, a girl having nothing to say. That made me feel like all the girls are brighter than me.
2. After being depression free, I want to be determined, more cold-hearted. My life, now I just think I should not live with my parents anymore. They really piss me off everyday. I should find a hobby. I must get a position in career before 35.
3. My depression helps me to understand myself more. I listen to my truly need inside. It makes clear my weak points: hesitating, unconfident. I have to improve it.
4. Being worthless makes me angry
5. Being denied in love makes me sad
6. Money, travelling with friends, new progress in job, new development of myself.. can bring me some joy
I'm not comfortable to express my thoughts & myself so it's not smooth to write an interesting note