I don't know what to do, please help

by Kory
(Mexico)

Well I had written here before, my boyfriend was getting slowly better, he started going to a psychologist, he was going to enter some martial arts classes and well things were just moving slowly forward, but then, one afternoon out of nowhere he said he was getting tired, tired o feeling like that, tired of searching for a god that wouldn't answer him, he said he wanted a sign that God existed, and I tried to tell him the signs that have been in my life, but he got mad, and then from there on he is just in the worst shape I've seen him, he talks about giving up, about dying, that when he dies he will just disappear and that way he will no longer feel bad and he will no longer care for anything, he is just this way, he is sick, he can't breath and his head is always hurting, but he won't let me send him a doctor (I live in another city) and I just don't know what to do anymore, I don't know how to show him god does exists. Every time I say something about it he gets mad and starts to talk about dying, that he does not wan to live anymore because he finds it pointless, that if there's nothing more after life, then why live it at all.

Please help me, I don't know what I can do and it's tearing me apart.

ANSWER:

Thank you for sharing again. I want to encourage you... Is there a local pastor you can connect with? Or a Christian Teen Crisis Centre? I encourage you to look out for hands-on help nearby too - using your phone book.

In the meantime, my prayer for your boyfriend...

"Lord, there are many who are giving up right now with some even thinking of ending their lives. Please help me to be a light, to be a hand outstretched, and to be an intercessor for those who can no longer hear their spirits crying, “Choose life! Choose life!” Help me speak life to the souls of those who do not yet know that Jesus is calling them to choose life!

Give me opportunities to share your love with them. Help me share your plans of hope and a prosperous future with these souls—believers and not-yet-believers alike. Help me to speak words that will penetrate their discouragement so that they will want to hear more words of life. Holy Spirit, encourage them to know that you can lead them out of the barren and howling wasteland they are in even now. Those who have lost their hope, their courage, and their faith—as well as those who have no awareness of faith yet—please shield them, care for them, and guard them. Those whose heads are bowed with pain, steady them until they turn to you. I bind their confused minds to the mind of Christ so that they can hear His thoughts instead of the dark thoughts of their own heart/souls.

I bind their battered and negative emotions to your comfort and balance, Holy Spirit. I bind every heart/soul that is filled with hopelessness—believers and yet-to-be believers alike—to an awareness of your blood, Jesus, that you shed for them that they could be free to live the abundant life you have planned for them.

Help me to help them want to live. Bind up these brokenhearted souls and teach them your ways, O LORD; give them focused and undivided hearts that will strain to get to you instead of always trying to shrink back into the darkness. I loose, smash, crush, and destroy every effect and influence of all wrong agreements ever made about each one of them, over them, as well as the wrong agreements they made themselves. Shower them with your love as you strengthen them to CHOOSE LIFE!

You know right where they are, and you know the ones who are the most desperate and wanting to give up. I loose the deception and denial that their heart/souls keep trying to shroud their minds with. I agree with you as you speak these words to them: CHOOSE LIFE AND LIVE! Help them come out of the valley of despair they are in so they can choose to walk on the high places with you. Thank you for doing this for them. Amen" (Adapted from a prayer written by Liberty Savard.)

Way to keep on. Reach out for some hands-on help. Don't give up!

Merri Ellen :)