I think I hate myself
I always cause my husband to get annoyed and upset. It happens almost every day. I almost cry every day as well. It's like I wait for, or just want something bad to happen between us. I think I'm ruining the relationship. I don't think I look forward to anything anymore. He does things for me like taking me out but it doesn't help me. i don't like the way i am now. i am most angry about the way I am. I'm angry that years later I'm going to look back and see that I wasted so much valuable time, that I'm going to kill myself. I just hate how I am right now. I can't stand it, and I think I blame my husband for this.
People look forward to tomorrow...tomorrow, I know I'm going to cry again.I know I'm going to think about hating myself again. I hate myself.
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