I've always had problems developing new relationships. I grew up in a small town and had the same friends since childhood so I never really had to make friends; they were just there. Since I've moved on, I've realized that this is most likely the reason why I'm always depressed: I cannot bond with people so therefore, I live a life without close friendships. I'm married and my husband and I are close; I have a close relationship with my daughter. Everyone else I believe are judging me. I have a tendency to be on the serious side and this doesn't help because I'm not attracted to people who can't laugh. Anti-depressants do not change this in me. When I spend time with other people, I feel sooo good and happy but a little empty. How do I begin to change this?
Perhaps finding yourself a mentor or coach would be a help for you. I have sought out women to coach and mentor me through various circumstances in my life and this has made all the difference. If you can't find someone in your circles to help you step out of your comfort zone, hire someone to start. Feel free to even go with one of our online advisers. Go to... How To Access Online Counseling for Depression From Home
There is hope!
Merri Ellen :)