My college life.

by Tanya R
(Deming, NM,US)

My name is Tanya Reyes... Going to college in NM. 19 years old, freshmen, and major Psychology and in Army ROTC.
1. Think of the top 3 people you see most often during the week. Are they positive people or pessimistic people? Do they give you a glimpse of hope and joy or do they squash it all?
I see my roommate the most, she is a go getter and always in a good mood. She could make me laugh without trying. the second person is a old friend from high school, she is one of the reasons I came to college, she not always there for me but would never let me fall. She is a smart and a good person that motivates me. Know my weakness more then my strengths. Third person is a new guy I meet in college, carrying guy always saying I'm doing good even tho I'm not. But is slowly pulling away and I don't know why, so I blame myself

2. Where do you want to see yourself after being depression free? What do you want to be doing with your life?
After this depression I want to have self esteem about ROTC and say that I can be as good as anyone else or better. I want to see success in me like I use to, stop beating on myself. And meet new people so they could know the real me, not this sad, angry depressed girl.

3. As you think about your depression, what do you think it may be teaching you about yourself?
I guess what it is teaching me is that I'm not good with change and that I care to much of what people think of me. And that my friends and family is a great big part of my happiness.

4. What or who makes you angry?
My lack of fitness makes me angry, and myself for not doing better at school. or having a job yet and that I feel my mom and dad are not trying. And that I'm to much of a coward to tell anyone how i fell.

5. What or who makes you sad?
Leaving my mom, that I miss my friends, that I make someone love me for who I am. That people think of me as mean careless person.

6. What or who brings you joy?
Music brings me joy lets me escape, my friends here, my guy when his around. People that tell me I'm strong even tho I'm crying.

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Oct 19, 2015
Nice post
by: Hadian

Tanya R wrote his story of first day of college life and your major interest in Psychology and in Army ROTC. You become depressed because we know that New students take time to adjust in new college, university and school as well. These points you have discuss and every student who go to college first time don't become nerves. i think this website have useful content to get rid of depression.

Oct 03, 2015
Hey I don't know you but I care
by: Joe

Hey so I'm new to this site, I wasn't even sure what it was when I clicked on it, but I was looking for help online because my girlfriend has been telling me she's been depressed and I wanted to learn more about it.

Your post was the first I clicked on and it touched me. I'm a college student as well and I can relate to what you are going through, im a junior and my freshman year was very tough. I had a 1.78 gpa and got very little sleep and although I never showed it to my friends I was not nearly as happy as I acted. After my first semester I had everything on the line my family was near broke and I felt an insane amount of pressure and I wanted to break down so bad. But I couldn't cause I had so many people that cared about me that I didn't want to let down. I organized my life and took everything more seriously, I hit the gym everyday and i studied every afternoon , went to bed early on the weekdays and still went out every weekend and spent time with my friends and girlfriend, I got it all together and it was like once I got it going I couldn't be stopped. The past 3 semesters have been by far better than the first 18 years of my life. It gets better so sooo soooo much better! I've had deans list every semester since, I got a few amazing internships and am looking to interview for Coke next week (wish me luck) it's never too late and it's never to early to turn everything around!

The point of my story is that my life was a mess when I was a freshman and because of it I was more motivated than anyone to turn it around and now I'm the happiest person I know and I wouldn't change a thing and I wouldn't be where I am today if not for my miserable first semester.

I'm here cause my girlfriend has been really worrying with me with how sad she's been and God I just care so much for her I just want the best for her and I want her to be happy and when I saw your post I felt the same way, I don't know you but I care about you I relate to what your going through I want you to know your not alone your friends love you and they believe in you and will be there for you. College is crazy it's the most amazing thing at times and the worst as others but no matter how bad it gets its never the end of the world. Sorry for rambling not sure if you will even see this let alone read the whole thing but I hope you know it gets better and you will be better for your hard times.

Mar 28, 2013
Response to My College Life
by: Pam Borum

Wonder why people would think crying means we are weak? I believe it takes a strong person to cry and be in touch with their emotions, even when we are going through such a rough time. At least we are acknowledging our depression and raw emotions. What got me into this mess is always stuffing my emotions so deep, I wasn't feeling anything.

Hang in there, you are good, you are honest, and I hope you follow these steps you have been given. It is helping me and working three of them now. Will probably get my fourth tomorrow. I am just about a week or two into this program. Time passes by so I can't keep track, but plan on getting a calender soon.

Keep in touch if you will. If you would like to visit my blog on depression I started about a week ago, please do. Here is the link.

I have also found some inspiration on these forums, so if you are here, check back in and let me know how you are doing. One lovely depressed soul on these boards said, when she is feeling bad, she looks back at her steps to see which one she is missing. I plan on doing that too. I have been wanting to cure myself a long time now, and I need to have more patience. Every three days seems like an eternity because once you feel a bit of relief, all you want is more. The problem with this is, you can't let that defeat you. Two steps forward and one step back are fine. You still get to your destiny.


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