My depression looks very powerful in the mornings then it loses some of its strength as the day goes on.

by Erica
(Tennessee)

I've been feeling down for about the last 3 weeks. Some may say..."good grief, what are you worried about? I've been depressed for years". The reason I am addressing it is because I have had several episodes of depression throughout my life and want to learn how to head them off at the pass. A normal day so far has been going like this..I wake up in the morning with this horrible feeling in my stomach...like intense butterflies, anxiety, horribleness. It wakes me up after about 3 or 4 hours of sleep, which is usually about4 or 5 a.m. From the past I know that is it not going to do me any good to just lay there, so I get up and shower and start my day. I stay pretty depressed throughout the day and about the time I go to get my kids...at 2:45 p.m. it starts to slowly ease up, I guess simply because my day begins to get busier with the kids and suppertime and all that...which makes my mind busier. My husband sleeps during the day and works at night. He leaves about 6:00 p.m. I've usually been on my upward climb at this point since about 3:00 p.m. and it so far sustains through the night until about midnight when I go to bed. By the time I go to bed, I oft times can't even believe that I felt so bad, since at that time I feel so much better. But then morning comes and it starts all over again. I'm looking for support and a friend to talk to. I talk to my husband but don't carry on to much because I don't want to be the whiney wife and he works his butt off. I also don't have very many close friends I can talk to. I left out that I am a stay at home wife and mother.

ANSWER:

Thanks for sharing. When life gets loaded, the anxiety can build. Good for you for reaching out for help. Welcome here!

There is hope! You are worth it!

Merri Ellen