Think of the top 3 people you see most often during the week. Are they positive people or pessimistic people? Do they give you a glimpse of hope and joy or do they squash it all?

I take a look at my life I'm very lucky I have three adopted childern and a supportive husband. So what's my problem. The only reason I would not check out of this world is because I don't want to cause pain to my family. I cry all the time I think I can't wake up and do this another day. What kind of person does this? I am very ungrateful. I have friends that say you can talk to me anytime you want I'll listen. I don't want to talk, I just want it to end. I use to be so much fun, I have to make such an effort that it causes so much stress. My son has ODD, ADHD, and Abandonment disorder and I feel that I am no help to him. I feel I am making it worse. I have a great family, extended and in my home what is my problem? I just hate the whole thought of living. I could never tell anyone this in detail, what kind of mother and wife would feel like this. How can this be what life has for me?


Thanks for sharing. I know exactly what you're experiencing.

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I also encourage you to find a good counselor to help you with these many questions. Sounds like you need someone to walk closely through this and help you make sense of all your questions. Go to our home page to and look for the 'need to talk' button on the left.

I'm glad you've decided to move forward in finding answers! You'll find them!! Don't give up!

There is hope! You are worth it!

Merri Ellen

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